The very first time that i felt i don't know who to approach when i have maths and econs problems and doubts and whatever else you call them.
Perhaps it was out of habit that i'd call Azhar whenever i have a maths problem. That was since secondary days. Till the wee hours, we were still on the phone, about maths, about school, teachers and once in a while, about gossips. Whenever we could not solve the questions, we'd declare that the question is worng, just as we were taught.
Perhaps it was out of habit that i'd call Azhar whenever i had an econ problem. That was the JC days. I swear whenever i call him to ask an econ question, i felt like i was on a landmine. Yes, i was always afraid that he'd nag and scream and scold me for not paying attention and/or for not memorising. Yet, i still couldn't resist thanking him for all his effort.
And not forgetting that this boy has been smarter and smarter day by day, year after year. He still got to help me with my doubts. Till the waking hours he'd put whatever effort he'd afford to answer my doubts and aid me in solving the problems.
I bet there were times that he wished he could just simply kill me or simply shut me up, especially when i kept annoying him with the same questions. Yet, he was patient to answer them , most of the time.
Well, i was of help tp his studies too, at least i guess so. I'd explain geography (most of the time) and secondary science stuff and some maths problems too. Geez, though i wasn't sure if i was ever 100% accurate about any of my explanation.
Perhaps, now, it was out of habit that i'd call him to complain about my jobs and studies, No longer till the wee hours was any issues being discussed, cuz we are now considered as "busy" people, especially him, very busy.
Perhaps, it's ouyt of habit that he calls me, nagging that it's my fault that he's in NS, with his little pay and silly people ad anyone who punish him for no proper rhyme or reasons. "So it's my fault lah?" "Then?" No longer till the wee hours do we discuss such issues cuz we need proper sleeps and more energy and more patient to face the next day.
For 6years, we'd been taking same or intersecting subjects that i knew then, if i were to encounter ant difficulties, i could then approach hime easily. Yet, now even if i pay my fullest attention during lectures and do my tutorials dutifully, i still have the fear that should i encounter any difficulties, i don't know who to approach.
Such a "useful" friend of mine.
At times, it feels like he's in love.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [5:37 AM]