Hey, thanks for the lunch. You always know where got nice food. Yummy Yummy Yummy.
And I just know where are some of the nice places for hang-outs and dates at night. So convenient.
Just wanna say thanks. Put a dash of joy to my almost monotonous day.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [11:25 PM]
Hey, I'm Twenty. Ha soon it'll be your turn like a month's time.
Initial thought of my birthday was that no one familiar (you and the rest) is going to celebrate for me. A little disppointing on that note, honestly. I mean for the past 7years I've been having this birthday celebration with you people either treated or treat, but this year everyone just disappear, especially you. Well, but you didn't afterall. That's my boy. Good Boy.
Nothing fanciful, just a simple, really simple supper @Mac. It really ended my day well, in fact excellent. And your never-ending birthday greetings always make me smile. You are one friend I'll treasure always.
Nothing I say now can depict how I feel.
Just wanna say
Thank YOU.
Always,
Meow.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [4:26 AM]
I've got your birthday card so ready, but there's no content. It's simply empty. I don't know what to write in there. Ha. What if I simply give you an empty one? Will you be able to "decode" what I'm trying to say? Neh, I don't think so.
Life's been fun. I'm trying to cut-down on whatever external socialising gatherings and stuff with my friends. Got to study. I'm think I'm smart. Do you? At times, I find myself in this high level of absoption rate that I can digest and remember anything that I'm reading at that moment.
Haven't seen you for some time already. Ya, neither sms-ing nor call. Sometimes I'm just plain tired to get my hands on anything, though I really wished that you'd have called and chat without any interruption like, "I'll call you back/ some other day".
Hmmm, guess I'm tired already.
Nites.
Sweet dreamz.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [7:55 AM]
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Our contract is automatically renewed I supposed.
Another year ahead.
And counting still.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [11:55 PM]
I was thinking of my final entry for the year when I realised how much I miss everyone. Emo time.
Well, been university-ing for some months now and I've kinda find a group of people --- maybe two, whom I can talk anything to and do whatever I want. The ironic thing is that last time I used to be the "oldest" in the group, rather mostly, whichever group I was in, but now, I'm like the youngest. Really, the next one is twenty and the guys are like going back for reservist. Cool isn't it. They don't know who I was, maybe just who I am, even who I want to be. Maybe, I'm breathing well in there. I don't know.
For now, I only wish I can hug everyone. Miss you (people) so so much.
Do you.....
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [12:01 AM]
Haven't talk to you for so long lah. Yup, missing you already hahahaahaha....i think i'm falling sick already.
Anyway, Christmas coming soon enough and again, soon you'll be 20, so will i. Can't believe that i've actually lived close to 2decades. Wanted to call you, to hog onto the phone like what we used to do, but i don't know what to say besides hi, how are you, busy, when will you be free.....perhaps, and hopefully, it's just me, being packed a little too tight last month, hence the tiredness.
Well, enjoy your mud-crawling. Greet the earthworms along the way.
Earthworms....rem the ones down the slope when we were at bowen, whenever there was a downpour....jo's rubber band... really doubt her capability in science @ that point of time.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [7:57 AM]
Guess what. I was roaming around Cityhall area when couple of nice watches caught my attention. Well, if you are lucky that at your birthday, I'm rich and i really mean rich, i'll get one of those for you. Rather pricey.
Hmmm...haven't talk to you for quite some time, so just kinda wondering if you are still alive. Nette's returning soon....missing her a little more than little.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [11:35 PM]
SELAMAT HARI RAYA to YOU!!!
Well, guess what, stage 2 of your birthday card's completed.
Stage 1: sketch --- done
Stage 2: amends and colour combinations along with materials decisions --- done
Stage 3: get the papers and draw
Stage 4: the accessories like glitter, tapes, colours
Stage 5: perfect it
Stage 6: envelope
Stage 7: keep card and envelope aside
Stage 8: ponder over gift
Stage 9: (uncertain)
Stage 10: (uncertain)
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [11:51 AM]
I miss....
1) Azhar, Jolin, Lynette, May, Nisha, Valerie, Shawn
2) Wearing uniform, school uniform that is
3) Hanging out with you people after school
4) Teachers like ms loh, mrs kumar, mrs danapal, mr soo, and the list goes on
5) Carrying stacks of books
6) Running errands for kumar and getting full marks
7) Seeing my a-maths textbook "committing suicide"
8) Chit-chatting till late nights, till early mornings very much
9) Azhar helping me to solve maths and econs problems and everytime nearly twist my head
10) You, of course.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [10:31 PM]
ONE HUNDRED AND FORTY-SEVEN DAYS TO YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [8:30 PM]
Boy, you know what, actually i wasn't overwhelmed by the sudden overflow of information just now. I'm really contented that you called me to go meet you @Mall. Ya, got to admit that it was really rather rushy & got to reschedule some stuff, but i know nothing beats seeing you.
I'd have avoided the "sudden overflow of infor" but I know that you've got something in your mind, and @the same time, I really just want to have a friend-companionship ever since the beginning of the year, ever since the beginning of school term. Having not heard your voice for that long time and not talking to you for long, that's why i don't mind jsut staying a little longer. But still not scolded by my mum lah.
When you msg me that, "Your impression of me may change," I hesitated and asked myself, "Huh?" I asked myself what was my impression of you when i first met you, what was my impression of you through the years and what was my impression of you just now, before i talked to you. In fact, i really don't know. Sad or not i don't know either. Maybe my first impression of you was superficial, first impression---friendly, funny, jokey, i don't know, you name it.
Perhaps the only impression of you, always been and will still have of you, is that you are once a friend, always a friend, forever one. But do you call that an impression?
Perhaps impression's no longer important cuz impression may change & is very much to one's perspective, but i know the trust, the belief, the friendship i have in you, for you will always remain.
Thank you a million and one for letting me know what had happened & how much you've "been tolerating all these while". Really.
Well, boy, rem to have a break. I know you have been busy and are busy but, well, do take care k. Hmmm...it's just feel nice to see you just now. Maybe there were quite some stuff that i wanted to say just now, yet i didn't know how to start, how to continue, how to end. Hmmm...only thing i realise is that if one day you decided to leave the group totally, to leave singapore, to not talk to me, i'll really be lost and scared. So precious you are, boy....
Don't overwork yourself (as if it's a choice) and rest well, k...i wanna go over your place for hari raya...Geez....
*perhaps by the time you read this, you wouldn't rem any of these @all. it's okie. i wanted to tell u so much that i really believe you r attached but i just decided to keep it since you decided to end with saying no to that. well...can bully cat but don bully her. cat always.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [1:52 AM]
Knowing that you are now very very very occupied with lots of stuff, I decided not to call you to disturb you. So guai right, this cat of yours. Yup, so whenever I feel like rattling any annoyance to you, I'll do it in the silent method. And, yup, I'm just dropping by to say, "Hi!"
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [5:48 AM]
HELLO!!!
This is a birthday gift from me to you, either your 20th birthday or 21st. But most probably I guess will be 21st.
This is definitely one of the things that I decided to do on impulse so I really hope that by the time you receive this gift you'll love it. Ya, me being an IT-idiot doing this....Yup, I'll try my very best to improve on this but I rather like the skin, so suitable for you lah.
In the meanwhile, await patiently for the upcoming surprise!!!
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [2:27 AM]
The very first time that i felt i don't know who to approach when i have maths and econs problems and doubts and whatever else you call them.
Perhaps it was out of habit that i'd call Azhar whenever i have a maths problem. That was since secondary days. Till the wee hours, we were still on the phone, about maths, about school, teachers and once in a while, about gossips. Whenever we could not solve the questions, we'd declare that the question is worng, just as we were taught.
Perhaps it was out of habit that i'd call Azhar whenever i had an econ problem. That was the JC days. I swear whenever i call him to ask an econ question, i felt like i was on a landmine. Yes, i was always afraid that he'd nag and scream and scold me for not paying attention and/or for not memorising. Yet, i still couldn't resist thanking him for all his effort.
And not forgetting that this boy has been smarter and smarter day by day, year after year. He still got to help me with my doubts. Till the waking hours he'd put whatever effort he'd afford to answer my doubts and aid me in solving the problems.
I bet there were times that he wished he could just simply kill me or simply shut me up, especially when i kept annoying him with the same questions. Yet, he was patient to answer them , most of the time.
Well, i was of help tp his studies too, at least i guess so. I'd explain geography (most of the time) and secondary science stuff and some maths problems too. Geez, though i wasn't sure if i was ever 100% accurate about any of my explanation.
Perhaps, now, it was out of habit that i'd call him to complain about my jobs and studies, No longer till the wee hours was any issues being discussed, cuz we are now considered as "busy" people, especially him, very busy.
Perhaps, it's ouyt of habit that he calls me, nagging that it's my fault that he's in NS, with his little pay and silly people ad anyone who punish him for no proper rhyme or reasons. "So it's my fault lah?" "Then?" No longer till the wee hours do we discuss such issues cuz we need proper sleeps and more energy and more patient to face the next day.
For 6years, we'd been taking same or intersecting subjects that i knew then, if i were to encounter ant difficulties, i could then approach hime easily. Yet, now even if i pay my fullest attention during lectures and do my tutorials dutifully, i still have the fear that should i encounter any difficulties, i don't know who to approach.
Such a "useful" friend of mine.
At times, it feels like he's in love.
__`I'm a Kid at Heart`__ [5:37 AM]